Sunday, May 2, 2010

Yes, effort IS required

Anyone who knows me well will be aware that I am definitely not the most creative girl in the room. I've been wanting to do something about this but I haven't had any ideas (haha, not surprising!). But then a few thoughts of mine came together quite opportunely.

Thought number one: I love music.
Not that I am the foremost aficionado of music, but I love what it can do to me. I love that it can change my mood completely in a matter of minutes and that it can affect my body even more than my mind. I love the energy and power that it can contain and how it seems to penetrate right to my heart and soul.

Thought number two: I have rarely tried and struggled for anything in my life.
I am one of those people that you probably love to hate ;) Without raising a sweat I received one of the top few percent of VCE scores in the state, I've never had a boyfriend break up with me, I had scouts come and request for me to join their netball team, have been offered jobs with no interview, never had to be careful about what I eat. You name anything I 'have' and I probably didn't work very hard to get it. But there's a whole list of things that I don't have/can't do/don't know. Most obviously because I have never put in much effort. So the aim is to change that.

So I've been playing around on the piano/keyboard all my life and I'm still pretty mediocre. Creativity and melody are shown to be related to the function of the right hemisphere of the brain, while I am clearly left brain dominant with my mathematical and verbal abilities. But considering that I can't fluently read music and have never had professional lessons, I think I'm not too bad (hopefully!). I've always wanted to improve my skills but knew it would take a lot of work, but 'ta da' the time has come.

I vividly remember when I was a teenager that Danny Nahlia (you may remember him from the religious vilification lawsuit controversy) prophesied that I would be a 'tuning fork' and on a different occasion he spoke over me as a 'model'. Since then I was fascinated with the Yamaha trinity-esque logo. While I am the first to admit that prophecy is often fabricated, plain wrong and definitely aligns with the Barnum Effect (the idea that people will readily accept vague and flattering statements about themselves), his words have always stuck in the back of my mind.

So the plan is to learn. To put in effort. To practice. To spend a whole lot of money and a whole lot of time to develop something beneficial to myself and hopefully to others. Fingers crossed the will is in me somewhere...


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